We were a sort of aliens in any environment where we were forced to live due to the transferable job of my father.
I spent my time with my parents at the following Air force stations(AFS)-
AFS Adampur
AFS Chandigarh (Mullanpur)
AFS Amritsar
AFS Tezpur
AFS Manauri Allahabad.
At all these places we were kind of an island situated in the midst of an ocean of different cultures, alienated a bit so that we can preserve our own traditional values and in this endeavour, we couldn't mingle well with others...
My father being very very orthodox...I think caused a sense in us that he would get extremely hurt , if we cause anything or become a part of anything which even slightly deviates from our own cultural values, which my father cherishes so deeply...
So I never used to make friends with guys whom my parents thought were roudies.
I never played cheap games like goli-kancha or gulli danda etc.
I always tried to keep a distance in the friendships I made , only to maintain the cyst/covering which my parents put on us (me and my sisters) ,which we thought , might get tampered if we make too much proximity to someone who might not fit completely into our own thought procedures and ideas.
Another cause is, I guess is that my father is in some sense - weak in socializing with diverse set of people. And it has been genetically transferred to me and my sisters. And my mother is a kind of strong persona with a sense that - we are self sufficient and can live with or without any thing.
So the point is that- we wanted to prove this idea of self sufficiency,and couldnt allow any one to become so integral a part of our lives so that we couldn't live without them......Framing in other words- we couldn't in any case accept that we are weak in any area whatsoever, and if we found someone who beats us in some area, we boycotted that very person and forgot that area for once and for all, as if that do not count as a valid criteria for assessment.
So , slowly and steadily we kept on finding one area or other in which we couldn't beat someone, and our boycott list grew bigger and bigger, restricting us to a very small group of people whom we can beat in every ways whatsoever and every single time.
Attributing to this particular notion of my mother, all of us , primarily I , used to get very uneasy into a group where I was not the boss in all the respects.I excelled myself into studies and fortunately, wherever and whichever school I studied I was the boss in this field(studies) leading to a stisfactory fan fare for me in all the schools . My dis qualifying all the sports freaks of my school as rogues might also be attributed to this idea only, cause I was never good in sports.So we must say , that we all tried to restrict ourselves to a small subset of this huge world where Our self supremacy idea was unrivalled.
This point proved fatal...And was the seed of all the troubles( emotional troubles) we were about to face in future....( I will cover all that in other posts.)
